Deepest Thoughts

New Years Resolutions

2008-12-31T06:47:54Z

And dammit I'm sticking to them.

1.) Eat healthy. No more of that fast food crap. I can stand to wait an extra 10 minutes on a salad. I can also stand to eat sandwiches once in a while from the deli (because some of those are healthy). Also, I'm going to be less uptight about eating healthy. I've let it get out of control before. I'm allowed to eat fastfood once a week if I so choose to go with a friend.

2.) Probably the most important. Work out. I just want to feel that energy I used to have. I want to love swimming again and not have to stop after 2 laps. I don't wan't to be worn out all the time. Remember being a kid and feeling awesome after playing tag or swimming, or something else requiring massive amounts of energy? I want that great feeling after doing something physically exhausting. I want to work out at least 4 days a week.

3.) Get to sleep at a decent time each night and wake up at an awesome time every morning. In other words, I want to be to sleep before 11 every night and wake up at 7 every morning. In fact I want to wake up at 6 so I can get to the gym and get a morning workout in. Those used to make me feel amazing in the mornings.

4.) Take care of myself better. I want to have a nighly routine and the same goes for the morning. I brush my teeth like crazy because of the braces so that's not an issue. I want to wash my face every night. I want to shower every morning. I shower every day, but I'd rather do it in the mornings instead of just making it a random time of the day I feel like fitting it in.

5.) I want to set aside a certain amount of time every day for homework and studying. at least two hours daily. I get out of class at 3:30 every day so I have no excuse for not getting homework done early. It leaves more time for fun in the late afternoons. Also, weekends get at least 3 hours daily of study. If not more considering circumstances.

6.)Set up my study abroad for the fall and possibly spring semesters coming up. I'm definitely going for at least one semester. Just not sure what I want to do. I can go for a trimester which is 3 months. One class per month. Or I could go for a semester (4 months one class per month). If I go for the semester for fall... I would have to go for a spring study abroad as well. I'll probably go for a trimester. I found the perfect program, place, and I know what I want to focus on.

7.) Keep up with my friends. I've neglected a lot of people. Then again a lot of people neglect me *shrugs*.

8.) Get a piercing and a TAT before the end of the year. I will get the tat in an area not commonly visible. Yes... in other words... a tramp stamp. I'm getting a monroe when it comes to the piercing. Also get my teeth whitened.

9.) Volunteer on a regular basis. Nothing to elaborate on there.

I know there is more that I want to do, but those are the main things that are just REALLY on my mind lately.

MSI has really been on my mind lately but I can't think of anything important involving them.

Wish me luck on my goals. 9 of them. I will update my progress.

The Plan

2008-11-09T16:25:14Z

For today.

I want to spend 4 minutes on each slide in my psych presentations... which would equal approximately 10 hours (Give or take because of some BS slides).

I want to work out for an hour... INCLUDING swimming.

Walk to strom: 30 minutes
Walk back: 30 minutes
Time there: 1 Hour
Time for lunch and dinner: 1 hour 30 min
Time to study: 10 hours

Start time 11:30
End time:?
1 AM

FANTASTIC!

uhhh

2008-11-09T06:01:00Z

jeeze....

No you don't know what it's like. Totally different worlds= totally different experiences.

College, firetrucks, and ambulances... oh my!

2008-10-26T09:07:22Z

If ever there was a better time to update.

So Capstone had a fire alarm at like 4AM. I'm still sleeping pretty lightly when I get a text from Olivia asking if I'm up. I reply yes and immediately think something is very wrong. I'm hoping no one died or something.

She texts me back saying that all Capstone people are stranded (400+ people) outside due to a faulty electrical wire or something. So I tell her she can come over here. There are tons of people in the lobby... so after I let her upstairs I go back down to invite more and the alarm was over. She was probably up there for 3 minutes haha.

But I'm glad I could help what little I did. It was exciting.

I look like shit.

Off to bed I go.

BEST CONVO EVER!

2008-09-22T06:31:37Z

animefreaq17: i am well
mort pour amour: .... did I do something?
animefreaq17: no silly
mort pour amour: your responses are short
mort pour amour: just seems like you might be pissed at me
animefreaq17: oh no not at all =]
mort pour amour: or in the middle of... well... hehe... something
animefreaq17: xD you cought meh
mort pour amour: REALLY?
mort pour amour: am I right?
animefreaq17: yea lol
mort pour amour: YES!
mort pour amour: I rock
animefreaq17: xD
animefreaq17: thatt you do
animefreaq17: sorry lol i would type mor but you cought me right in the middle
mort pour amour: it's quite alright
mort pour amour: I understand
mort pour amour: sort of...
animefreaq17: =]
animefreaq17: sort of
mort pour amour: hey I dont really do that
mort pour amour: *shrugs*
mort pour amour: but I can imagine
animefreaq17: you should try it
mort pour amour: XD
mort pour amour: not like I havent done it
mort pour amour: it's different for girls
animefreaq17: really?
mort pour amour: not quuiiiite as effective
animefreaq17: nah it just takes skill
animefreaq17: i used to be a noob too but i got better
mort pour amour: no... it's not as effective
mort pour amour: scientifically proven
animefreaq17: i dont know how it wouldnt be...
animefreaq17: really?
mort pour amour: it's easier for a guy to get off than a girl
mort pour amour: most of the time girls dont even actually orgasm
animefreaq17: oh you get adicted? i get off every few hours
animefreaq17: wtf
animefreaq17: im talking about world of warcraft O.o
animefreaq17: DX
animefreaq17: omg yo
mort pour amour: OMFG@@@
mort pour amour: OIMFGG@@
mort pour amour: !!!!
mort pour amour: hhahahahaha
animefreaq17: you freak xD
animefreaq17: i was going to say i get off every few hours when my fingers start to hurt but... ican see were you would missunderstand tyhat too

she_has_no_time @ 2008-09-22T02:09:00

2008-09-22T06:27:54Z

I met Jonathan =]

We hung out at the Travis Barker/Gavin Degraw concert thingy on Friday. Oh and it might be Travis Barker's last performance. You never know. He got some serious burns when his plane crashed. Only he and his DJ survived. He had burns to his lower body and his DJ had facial burns.

I walked with Olivia and Steph to Gay Pride on Saturday. It was a two mile walk -_-. Not to mention all the walking while there and walking back. Then walking to the shuttle bus to go to the football game. Then walking to the stadium from the drop off point, standing the whole game, walking back to the pick up point, and walking back to my dorm from the drop off point. That's a SHITLOAD of walking. I actually went to sleep around midnight (which is early).

Gay Pride was fun =]. I got a tat from a transexual (fake one.... fake tat... not transexual). Listened to Katy Perry over and over because it's a pretty popular song when it comes to gay pride. I got a bracelet.

After Pride I went to the football game. We won =]. Wofford made plays they shouldn't have. I didn't get burnt this time.... because it was at night.

I spent the majority of today studying for a psych test with Olivia. I think I would have gone to sleep if I had to study alone. I should at least pass. I think we get to drop the lowest grade so it might not matter.

I'm going to a symphony performance tuesday =]. I wanted to go to the Greek Festival, but I just didnt have the energy today, and I didn't have the time saturday or sunday.

A week of firsts

2008-09-18T06:51:15Z

This week has been full of firsts for me.

This past weekend I went to my first USC football game =].

As a result of that first game, I also have my first sun poisoning.

As a result of the sun poisoning, I also shopped and CVS for the first time since arriving at college.

Tonight was my first time being walked in on while I was in the bathroom. It was by a guy. This one deserves an explanation. I never lock the bathroom door because our bathroom is supposed to be shared by 4 girls (me being one of them). So I just finish peeing and whiping when I hear the doorknob and I hunch over and shield my privates. The guy is obviously drunk and kinda says "ohh... oops, sorry". So I just kinda laugh in disbelief until I hear him and a few drunk friends being loud as fuck. So my roomate and I BLAST two hardcore/grindcore/metal bands at once as loud as we can. She walks down the hallway and you can apparently hear it all the way down. The guys were confused and pissed by the non-rap music. I will also get revenge... trust me.

Another first: I got my first condoms =]. Granted I got them for free at a presentation in order to make my own presentation in university 101.

I wore a long sleeved jacket for the first time on campus.

I attended my first Emerging Leaders program.

I ran in my first election.

I won my first election.

I am the first events coordinator for the USC chapter of the Pastafarians.

I wrote my first english paper.

I got called out in chorus today for the first time because apparently my voice stood out too much =[. I can't help that my voice just carries more than most.

well that's about it. I feel as though I should add more, because I can. But I've listed all the significant things so I will just stick to that.

GNIGHT!

Perfect =]

2008-08-18T03:16:30Z

I've never been so excited about life.

It's pretty close to perfect. I imagine it will be perfect by about march when I have my braces off and I've lost whatever weight I will lose.

I've actually made friends. I have plans to hang out tomorrow and do lunch. I've been walking more than EVER. I'm going to work out tomorrow =].

I love my roomate to deathhh... but I think it's awesome that I get the dorm to myself most weekends and until class starts.

I had a guy friend over tonight =]. We watched TV (sort of), laughed, cuddled, and wrestled around a bit. It all came rather naturally. I dont know if there will be any sort of relationship.... but it's nice to have him to hang around.

BTW, one of the new friends I made has red hair and pale skin like me! She is also into the same kind of music, shes social, and sometimes a bit awkward like I am =D. My suite mates are verrry cool.

Like I said. I've never been so excited about life. Well it's late and I need to wake up early tomorrow for a book reading experience... so I'll stop here and not mention alll the other details =]

Good night....

Amazing night =]

she_has_no_time @ 2008-08-03T11:30:00

2008-08-03T15:34:03Z

I don't care what anyone says. Depo provera is great. My mood is inhanced. My appetite is affected as well. I'm not as hungry.

Oh and I won't ever get preggers. And my period has a good possibility of stopping after the next shot (in three months).

Well worth it. It didn't even hurt.

Also, I went shopping. Got nice stuff. Ready for college =]

she_has_no_time @ 2008-07-26T15:56:00

2008-07-26T20:16:14Z

So I need to figure out how much meals are on campus. I plan on eating at Zia Juice. Get a chicken salad and a friut juice for dinner. But dinner only allows for 5.70 worth of meal, and would a salad and juice be under 5.70? Let's say it costs 2 dollars more. That's 14 bucks a weel going towards my carolina cash.

Now for lunch I will probably eat my heaviest meal. Perhaps some soup, salad, and tea at Soupman. But would 5.35 be enough to pay for it? Let's say this costs 3 bucks more. Thats 21 bucks a week going toward carolina cash.

Breakfast is definately going to be my special K protein water and the protein bar. They are delish and light on everything but protein. A weeks worth of these is 1 box for each, which is 7 bucks approximately.

Already, just for meals, I'm out nearly 45 bucks. The other money I will need to just SAVE. The other 55 per week that is.

We'll say I save up for a month.... that's around 220. How much are football game tickets? I will want to go to two or three this semester. I really can't imagine college football tickets being more than 100 bucks unless it's a REALLY popular game and the demand is higher.

So I'm left with 120 a month. The rest of this will go towards clothes shopping, extra hygeine products as needed, and extra school supplies.

Jeeze.... college is expensive. I just hope food is cheaper than I'm anticipating.

SHOPPING!

2008-07-20T03:01:26Z

College shopping is going to happen tomorrow! I'm definately excited. I hope I don't get weird looks for being soooo burnt. At least it looks like a normal burn now.

I like that I'm writing in this thing so much more. I think it's a healthy outlet. And a nice way to keep up with everything.

I like how upbeat the All-American Rejects are. Also, I miss matchbox twenty. It's my goal to listen to them more often.

she_has_no_time @ 2008-07-18T23:14:00

2008-07-19T03:16:01Z

Sometimes I think I'm the only sane person left.

Other times I feel like it's just the opposite.

If nothing else, would you not, AT LEAST, say that I'm genuine? Out of all the fucked up people that would harm anyone in their way, would you not, AT LEAST, think that I'm above doing that?

Sunburn, Illness, and Birth Control... OH MY!

2008-07-18T23:43:06Z

I'm sick. How does this always happen? Over the past 6 months I've been sick more than I have over the past 6 years. Hahah maybe I'm dying? *shrugs*

I'm also TERRIBLY sunburnt. My face is peeling, and rough, and gross. It's been 4 days and I'm still clearly very red. I'm just going to let it go away though. Nothing else to do.

I'm getting on the birth control shot! No period after the first two shots is usually how it works. But for a while I will have a non-stop period, possibly heavier, possibly lighter. I hope mine just STOPS. Immediately. But yea, I'm excited. I get my first shot august 1st.

UNEXPECTED SURPRISE!

2008-07-16T05:01:15Z

So I got a check in the mail for 1,000 bucks. I wasn't expecting it.

Thank you Horry County Schools.

Also... Warped was pretty awesome. Every Time I Die did AMAZING as always and I had a wonderful time screaming and moshing in the crowd. The Dillinger Escape Plan also put on an amazing show. I had never seen Dillinger live before so that was a nice treat.

Otherwise I was kinda disappointed. Don't get me wrong, I'm glad I went. I just wish it would have rained like it had a 70% chance of doing. It was so hot. I was worn out long before I was at bamboozle. Also the line-up wasn't as amazing as bamboozle. Warped is way overrated. Bamboozle is where it's at. I stillll had fun though. And it was AWESOME being able to hang out with heather and get to know her.

I feel lucky.

she_has_no_time @ 2008-07-13T01:38:00

2008-07-13T05:38:29Z

Microsoft Office.

-_-

she_has_no_time @ 2008-07-11T15:23:00

2008-07-11T19:27:00Z

Add a graphing calculator to that list.

So main priority for now is Calculator and printer. Total cost of that will be about 170. So the money I'm getting will pretty much cover that. Desk lamp 15 tops. Other stuff can be obtained from family for now (deodorant, shampoo, paper, pens, pencils, body wash). They will give them as gifts, I don't doubt.

NEEDS!

2008-07-11T02:32:14Z

I should make up a list so I don't forget shit. Add to it as I need to.

Printer
Towels
Desk Lamp
At least 3 more pairs of jeans
2 skirts+tops
1 dress
5 dove deoderants
5 garnier shampoo and conditioner
5 dove body wash
A good amount of eyeliner
Special-K water mix
Paper
Pens
Pencils
A few binders for organization's sake
A baithing suit
Plip flops
Sneakers
1 pair of nice heals
1 pair of other dress shoes
4 pairs of pajamas
6 new bras
7 new undies

Price of all this? 800 bucks at least.

Look on my face when I realized how much shit I need? PRICELESS (but will sell for money considering my need).

College

2008-07-09T13:49:32Z

Ugh I can't think about anything else. I bet I'm going to majorly stress out when I get there. I need to write all my thoughts down as they happen so I don't confuse myself

So I'm taking English 102, Math 120, Music 129, psychology 101, Athropology 101, and University 101.

Next semester I need to take a 4 credit science (Bio I guess), a 3 credit science (astronomy I guess), Speech, Some sort of course in the arts (Music or theatre or dance appreciation). Now besides these required I REALLY want to take a choir and a language.

So next semester is going to be insane. 4+3+3+3+3+1= 17 or the maximum amount of credits (and I think I have to pay extra if I take over 16 hours.... ugh) so should I hold off on my music? That would be so depressing. I don't know what I even want to do yet! Maybe I will end up loving Anthropology... or maybe psychology will be my field.

But if I go into international business I will need to minor in a language. That would probably end up being french and I need to start over at basic french.

Let's say I put off my 4 credit science for next year, if I can. I could go ahead and take an even higher level math worth 3 credits. I'm eventually going to need to take that higher level math. So then I could put off the science, keep the language and music, and still meet requirements for my degree.

Business is a really great major to have. You can do a lot of stuff with it. I could always double major in business and someting else, then start my own businesses.

My problem is not taking things one step at a time. I'm sooo concerned with after college that I don't let myself enjoy college. And I'm not even in it yet!

Okay so I'm getting all my lower level courses out of the way. How many upper level classes could there possibly be to fill my schedule for three years? Not only that, but I am about 4 courses ahead of what a normal college student would be at. Putting off one course for another semester won't harm me.

I think too much. This entry is too long. I think I needed it though.

haha

2008-07-05T19:36:28Z

So I'm tracking an order I made online... and this is what I see:

Shipment Date 07-03-2008
Delivery Date 12-31-1969

They deliver by method of time machine? Haha it's buried underneath my house right now rotting. -_-

Mean?

2008-06-18T20:06:26Z

Some guy called me mean yesterday. So, being me, I went out onto my balcony, cried, and thought about it. I ended up psyching myself out- thinking about how mean, bitchy, annoying, and boring I am. I went to sleep and stayed asleep for 13 hours. I don't even have the will to eat.

It's amazing what one little comment can do.

So I'm thinking how I can change myself and not be so mean. Talking less would work. It would solve all those problems. Talking less requires writing more in this thing. So I guess that's my solution.

Summer Goals

2008-06-09T21:24:31Z

Because everyone has them. And because I've given up on New Years Resolutions. Summer Goals always seem to work out better.

CHANGE THE WAY I THINK!
1: I'm a total package and if someone can't love me for that then they aren't right for me.
2: I have a great support system in NC and VA. I need to utilize that and never forget they are there for me.

CHANGE THE WAY I ACT!
1: Don't appease. If something disappoints me or bothers me I need to voice it!
2: Don't take things out on other people. My failures are my own, and can't be blamed on someone else.
3: Be happy for others. Quit being so jealous. I make my life and if I want more I need to earn more.

CHANGE THE THINGS I DO (physically)!
1: 50 sit ups a day
2: Get dumbells.
3: 20 minutes of cardio a day and work up.
4: Participate in physical stuff! (Swimming, frisbee, walk on the beach, etc.)

CHANGE THE WAY I EAT!
1: One salad a day.
2: One homemade fruit smoothie a day.
3: A glass of milk a day.
4: At least three nice meals a day.
5: No more eating out.

RANDOM!
1: Get job.
2: Get bed set for college.
3: Get new clothes.
4: Get into better shape.
5: Get liscense
6: Have tons of fun!

There we go. It's in writing. Notice I said nothing about losing weight. Just getting into better shape. The rest will follow. hopefully I can achieve this.

This City is Haunted

2008-06-03T21:47:29Z

I got sick. Very sick. My temperature stayed at about 104 for two days. I went to the doctor and after I took his medications it bounced down to 99 then back up to 102. This morning I woke up feeling nauseous and I had the cold sweats, but I toughed it out to go to school, so I could complete finals. What was my punishment for being such a little vandal you may ask? 10 bucks. That horrible teacher caused me to stress for no reason whatsoever.
I'm ready to leave. I just need to be away from this place entirely. It's not just the illness, it's not just the teachers, it's not just the students.... it's also my family. It's this ENTIRE place. I've never detested something more. Flagrant racism, hypocrisy, unbelievable amount of illiteracy. I'm not so high and mighty. I would never think of it that way. But these primitive locals sure are low on the evolutionary scale.

I'm in trouble for vandalism...

2008-05-31T00:44:21Z

Yea... I might be in serious trouble for vandalism. Writing "jenni wicked class of 08" on the side of a picnic table at the football field in small letters with a sharpie.
I had to perform tonight at senior night. The last night to get everyone together and look over old pictures and laugh and eat cake and ice cream and everything. Well earlier today we all had a cookout and pretty much everyone wrote their names on the table and so did I.
Today RIGHT before I was supposed to sing a teacher comes up to me and tells me this "Jen I am SOOO mad at you... I had to turn you in for vandalism... you could be in serious trouble for this..." at that point I started crying. So I'm in the cafeteria trying to calm down and one student actually overheard them talking about not letting some people walk at graduation. So now I'm hysterical because I am supposed to sing at graduation. I run out the door before the celebration even starts I fall behind a car crying and call my dad to come pick me up.
So he proceeded to tell me I fucked up the night for the chorus by being so overemotional. I'm just scared I wont get to sing and walk at graduation like I was supposed to. I'm pissed because she told me RIGHT BEFORE I was supposed to sing at senior night... right before I was supposed to laugh and enjoy the company of friends.

What an exciting life..... =[

she_has_no_time @ 2008-05-11T22:18:00

2008-05-12T02:30:58Z

Ugh I'm dizzy as can be.

Turns out my trip to New York with Kyle was about the only break I'm going to be getting for a while. The trip was fantastic BTW. We headed into the city friday afternoon and just wandered around for the most part. Enjoyed a FANTASTIC meal in Little Italy. Rode the subway, the train, and the shuttle. Managed to not get lost ONCE. Then Saturday and Sunday we spend in New Jersey at Bamboozle. I saw on Saturday:
Can You Keep A Secret, Cute is What We Aim For, Story of the Year, The Red Jumpsuit Aparatus, Vinnie's band, The Audition, Kill Hannah, Chariot, The Devil Wears Prada, Jimmy Eat World, Paramore, and Snoop Dog.
On Sunday I saw:
Finch, All Time Low, The Academy Is..., As Tall As Lions, We The Kings, I AM THE AVALANCHE!, Every Time I Die, Gym Class Heroes, Coheed and Cambria, Panic at the Disco.
It was fantastic and it definately wore me out. I got a picture with Vinnie (lead singer of I am the Avalanche) and I got a shirt and a hoodie =]

So now I've been working like crazy on my Senior Project. I'm going to finish it tomorrow night. Then Tuesday I have scholarship interviews. Then Wednesday I have to present my Senior Project (ickk). And Thursday I have an awards banquet. Then I have a shitload of performances to go to. Gahh my head is just all muffled up.

I have no time.

she_has_no_time @ 2008-04-27T15:51:00

2008-04-27T19:52:56Z

I'm ready to be out of here.

Beyond ready.

One more month and you people will never have to hear from me again.

It made me sad at first. But I suppose I should be glad I'm not annoying anyone shouldn't I?